Corey’s Diary December 6th, 2013: Am I Lost Or Just Frustrated?

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Dear Diary,

I know everyone goes through all kinds of different phases of their life. I feel like I am on the right track. But some weeks, I feel like I am spinning my wheels. And again, I know everybody wonders whether they are on the right path.

If only it were easier done than said: Let go and let God. When people tell me to meditate I know I should…but I can’t. I can’t turn off my brain.

And I think one of the biggest problems is a lot of the chaos is out of my control. I just have to sit back and have an open mind.

Lately, I haven’t felt as motivated…to do anything. I don’t want to be a giant out of shape Amazon when I go to see Jeff’s family. We haven’t seen some of his extended family in a long time and I want them to be proud of Jeff’s choice. I don’t want them to think I am a lazy turd.

It doesn’t help that we are no further in finding out what is wrong with my cat. I just cleaned up cat poop on the second floor. That was after cleaning out Loki’s crate. He defecated 3 times in there this week. I know it has to do with the treatment he got at that kennel.

The cat vet is going to see him again over Christmas. Javier goes back in a couple of weeks for his ear and respiratory infection. I feel out of control and I hate that feeling.

I want everything to work right and be reliable. But that is not the real world. Being an adult sucks sometimes. At least it is Friday and cold. It will definitely be a three dog night.

Talk to you tomorrow,

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